Category Archive
The following is a list of all entries from the ponderings category.
Perspective.
Filed in ponderings, July 15, 2008, 8:05 amI want to move. (I want alot of things).
Into town, closer to the hospital, closer to the services that we now need for Ivy.
Closer to my mum.
I can’t see how to do it though.
If we move and Ivy has the IVIG then going back to work for a couple of days a week is a […]
Worry, worry, fritter, fritter…
Filed in Health, illness, doctor related posts, ponderings, worry, June 5, 2008, 11:02 amThe paed’s secretary called this morning, asking me if I would push Ivy’s appointment back to next Tuesday.
Was Ivy that sick that she needed to see him today? He had a twins’ birth he needed to be at and alot was going on, did she really need his time and attention or could it wait?
I […]
Lets face facts.
Filed in blah blah blah, ponderings, May 5, 2008, 3:17 pmThe paediatrician is good looking.
I’m a big girl, I can admit that without collapsing with jelly legs.
Or falling in lust.
Or swooning.
Or gushing.
Not just your average good looking. He is really good looking and he is nice to the staff at the hospital and his hands are strong.
Does anyone else like strong hands?
No? Just another of […]
About becoming a shut-in…
Filed in blah blah blah, ponderings, wig out, May 2, 2008, 1:19 pmSeriously.
We are supposed to be going to a wedding this weekend but I haven’t seen my friend for so long now, I feel that I shouldn’t go. Besides that, when I think about getting out amongst people my heart jumps into my throat. The thought of mingling with other people makes me nervous.
Sick nervous.
It hasn’t always been […]
On being larger than life…
Filed in blah blah blah, ponderings, May 1, 2008, 8:59 amI was always the big girl.
For as long as I can remember I have carried the extra kilos, have never been the skinny girl, never will.
School was a tragic affair of teasing and bullying. There were things that happened in the playground that I will carry with me forever.
Like that teacher in the forth grade […]
Motherhood…
Filed in motherhood, ponderings, April 29, 2008, 9:49 pmMother’s Day is coming and, usually, I look forward to a day of being spoiled and totally feeling like the world’s best mother but this year?
This year I don’t feel like the world’s best anything.
In fact I feel like sh*t.
The last few weeks have really knocked my confidence, as a mother.
I feel as though I am […]
On sickness, not going away and breaking point…
Filed in Health, illness, Loss of a baby, hurting, ponderings, wig out, March 12, 2008, 10:27 amIt seems that Ivy and I have relaxed just enough to make us both sick.
She physically and me emotionally.
I am not sure I can cope with her being unwell now.
Not now.
Not any time in the next six weeks or so.
But she is.
And I have to deal with it.
Because.
Just because I am the mother.
Yesterday I had […]
I went to see a friend today…
Filed in ponderings, March 10, 2008, 10:00 pmand we sat and spoke the speak of the everyday, the polite banter of two women, who had met not too long ago but who had much in common and had become fast friends. We ate some lunch and danced around some prickly issues until it was time for us to leave.
It was nice.
To be […]
