Two days after the PICC line came out Ivy started complaining that her ear was sore.

When I looked at it, all I could see was green and goopy.

Today the girl is feeling ordinary.

She’s lying on the lounge under a blanket, with the small sausage dog.

She’s crabby.

She’s talking loudly and upset at the thought that I will start the eardrops again.

Am I disappointed?

Yes.

After two weeks in the hospital and almost two weeks of IV antibiotics at home, I was hoping for at least a few weeks grace from the ear infections.

Am I surprised?

Yes!

and

No.

Yes, because I was expecting to have more time before it all started up again.

Really.

The last time she did a whopping dose of IV antibiotics she was good for a little over six weeks. 48 hours post PICC line removal is just  too soon.

I was gobsmacked when I saw the discharge.

My in - laws and my mum are cross.

Mum feels that I just go along with the paed and agree to his plans.

My in - laws are cranky about the PICC coming out too soon.

I don’t know what they all thought I should do.

Jump up and down?

Refuse to let it come out?

Not agree to plans made?

*sigh*

It’s not quite as easy as all that.

If I fight the doctors they can call it neglect.

Abuse even.

If I question and suggest alternatives, the doctor thinks I don’t trust his decisions  and there is horrible tension, that does nothing to help Ivy

and if I do what he says, I am weak.

When the paed sees her tomorrow, I know he’s not going to be happy either.

Some days I just feel like I can’t do anything right for her.