She doesn’t remember but I will never forget.
She lost three days.
We came home from Queensland on the Sunday and she slept.
The trip home took almost ten hours and she was not with us for most of it.
She has no recollection of coming home, or her Gran leaving. She doesn’t remember her Daddy getting up and going to work or going the the emergency room the next day. She has no memory of the doctors or the nurses who saw her, the canula that was placed in her hand and has no notion of the worry and fear that pierced her mother’s heart.
When she woke though, she crawled onto my lap, her little body, so small and frail. Arms curled around my neck, she placed a small kiss onto my cheek.
“I love you too”, she whispered, before finding slumber again
and that is something I will never forget.
That one little sentence makes all the terrible fade to black, in the light of something so good.
Written in response to Michelle’s Courage Through Sharing meme.
Oh sweetheart. I suppose it’s a good thing she doesn’t remember feeling so icky, huh? Lots of love and get well vibes coming over from me. xxxx
That’s so scary that she lost that time.
There is so much that we hope, that we pray they don’t remember. And we forget none of it.
Beautiful.
Poor sweet little girl. Sad she lost the days, but a good thing she doesn’t remember the awful stuff. Pity her mum does, although I’m sure that cuddle and those words helped you greatly.
Beautiful.
It’s all here for her to see when the time comes.
Oh this gave me chills!
It’s like she HEARD you all those times you probably whispered “I love you” to her while she was so out of it!
Love knows no bounds – and where a mother and child are concerned – not even the bounds of unconsciousness.
She’s so adorable.
It is precious moments like this one that make all the hard times worth it! I hope she can see a stretch of wellness now.
How scary and frightening!! Poor little soul!
Hope she’s ok now Tiff.
What a beautifully touching post. Those three little words…that one little sentence…it just makes everything okay.
That is so warm and sweet. I wonder what she will think of us when, 15 or so years from now, when she’s old enough to understand and truly appreciate, she reads back through this time. What do you suppose it will mean to her that hundreds of people, all over the world, were united for a time in a heartfelt, worldwide prayer just for her – and put their name and heart to an effort to make her well. Do you think she will understand that none of us will ever, ever forget her -and the reason why is her loving and eloquent mother?
Oh. That breaks my heart and mends it all at once.
I think Flicka summed it up beautifully. When Cas had his surgery it was just the darkest time. I think I can imagine how that moment made you feel.
Here is G-girl’s comment, based on the photo of course: “Ive. Cryin’.”
The look on her face said, “I don’t like to see my friend hurting.”
Hey Three Ring Circus.
Great Blog! Just wanted to say congratulations on your entry to the top 100 Australian Blogs. Great to have you aboard!
Craig
I just went through this too. I hope hope hope they dont remember. Its true well never forget
Got to love those heart melting moments, and I guess they’re even more precious when a child is so unwell. I hope Ivy is doing much better.
Tiff, I read this post when you first put it up and I think I can finally come over here and comment on it without bawling my head off… Wow, but this post is beautiful!
I can’t even count all the lovely facets of this little vignette — the photo, the way you love her, the way she loves you — the way you dig down and find the will to put one more foot forward. You are amazing. Ivy is amazing. The two of you, in spite of all your pain and heartache, together you generate so much beauty and I am in awe.
~Michelle
That’s the beauty of it. Children forget what breaks our heart into pieces.
Hi Tiff, Thanks for coming over to ‘where the blog are you?’ it’s so great to meet you. I’ve been reading some of your story over here and am so moved. You are amazing and have been through so much! I need to keep reading…Please let me know if you’d like to be a featured blogger by emailing your favourite three posts to me at thebloggingaussie@gmail.com Cheers, Louisa
A mother’s love so fierce and unrelenting. We grasp at the random I love you’s like it’s oxygen.
Its amazing what a grip these little ones can have on us. All at once they can break us and save us at the same time. In the past two weeks I have become immensely grateful for the bond that is between me and my children. I would be lost without it!
Huge hugs to you!
Amber
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Oh wow. Quite a magic moment