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She doesn’t remember but I will never forget.
October 1st, 2008 by Tiff

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She lost three days.

We came home from Queensland on the Sunday and she slept.

The trip home took almost ten hours and she was not with us for most of it.

She has no recollection of coming home, or her Gran leaving. She doesn’t remember her Daddy getting up and going to work or going the the emergency room the next day. She has no memory of the doctors or the nurses who saw her, the canula that was placed in her hand and has no notion of the worry and fear that pierced her mother’s heart.

When she woke though, she crawled onto my lap, her little body, so small and frail. Arms curled around my neck, she placed a small kiss onto my cheek.

“I love you too”, she whispered, before finding slumber again

and that is something I will never forget.

That one little sentence makes all the terrible fade to black, in the light of something so good.

Written in response to Michelle’s Courage Through Sharing meme.

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23 Responses  
Marylin (168 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 7:15 am

Oh sweetheart. I suppose it’s a good thing she doesn’t remember feeling so icky, huh? Lots of love and get well vibes coming over from me. xxxx

Veronica (420 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 7:19 am

That’s so scary that she lost that time.

HennHouse (Karin) (75 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 7:24 am

There is so much that we hope, that we pray they don’t remember. And we forget none of it.

Beautiful.

Jennette writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 9:22 am

Poor sweet little girl. Sad she lost the days, but a good thing she doesn’t remember the awful stuff. Pity her mum does, although I’m sure that cuddle and those words helped you greatly.

Xbox4NappyRash (272 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 9:50 am

Beautiful.

It’s all here for her to see when the time comes.

Holly (125 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 1:32 pm

Oh this gave me chills!

It’s like she HEARD you all those times you probably whispered “I love you” to her while she was so out of it!

Love knows no bounds - and where a mother and child are concerned - not even the bounds of unconsciousness.

Amy writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 1:56 pm

She’s so adorable.

Lilprecious75 writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 7:57 pm

It is precious moments like this one that make all the hard times worth it! I hope she can see a stretch of wellness now.

Jeanette (143 comments.) writes:
October 1st, 2008 at 10:42 pm

How scary and frightening!! Poor little soul!
Hope she’s ok now Tiff.

Sadie (91 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 5:14 am

What a beautifully touching post. Those three little words…that one little sentence…it just makes everything okay.

lceel (234 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 5:35 am

That is so warm and sweet. I wonder what she will think of us when, 15 or so years from now, when she’s old enough to understand and truly appreciate, she reads back through this time. What do you suppose it will mean to her that hundreds of people, all over the world, were united for a time in a heartfelt, worldwide prayer just for her - and put their name and heart to an effort to make her well. Do you think she will understand that none of us will ever, ever forget her -and the reason why is her loving and eloquent mother?

Flicka (53 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 10:47 am

Oh. That breaks my heart and mends it all at once.

cerebralmum (4 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 2:01 pm

I think Flicka summed it up beautifully. When Cas had his surgery it was just the darkest time. I think I can imagine how that moment made you feel.

Mary writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 3:11 pm

Here is G-girl’s comment, based on the photo of course: “Ive. Cryin’.”
The look on her face said, “I don’t like to see my friend hurting.”

Motivational Speaker - Craig Harper (1 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 11:03 pm

Hey Three Ring Circus.

Great Blog! Just wanted to say congratulations on your entry to the top 100 Australian Blogs. Great to have you aboard!

Craig

Suzie (61 comments.) writes:
October 2nd, 2008 at 11:49 pm

I just went through this too. I hope hope hope they dont remember. Its true well never forget

m & B writes:
October 3rd, 2008 at 1:22 am

Got to love those heart melting moments, and I guess they’re even more precious when a child is so unwell. I hope Ivy is doing much better.

Childlife (195 comments.) writes:
October 3rd, 2008 at 6:25 am

Tiff, I read this post when you first put it up and I think I can finally come over here and comment on it without bawling my head off… Wow, but this post is beautiful!

I can’t even count all the lovely facets of this little vignette — the photo, the way you love her, the way she loves you — the way you dig down and find the will to put one more foot forward. You are amazing. Ivy is amazing. The two of you, in spite of all your pain and heartache, together you generate so much beauty and I am in awe.

~Michelle

Hyphen Mama (72 comments.) writes:
October 3rd, 2008 at 8:54 am

That’s the beauty of it. Children forget what breaks our heart into pieces.

Louisa (1 comments.) writes:
October 3rd, 2008 at 11:09 am

Hi Tiff, Thanks for coming over to ‘where the blog are you?’ it’s so great to meet you. I’ve been reading some of your story over here and am so moved. You are amazing and have been through so much! I need to keep reading…Please let me know if you’d like to be a featured blogger by emailing your favourite three posts to me at thebloggingaussie@gmail.com Cheers, Louisa

Dr. Cason (59 comments.) writes:
October 3rd, 2008 at 11:45 am

A mother’s love so fierce and unrelenting. We grasp at the random I love you’s like it’s oxygen.

Amber Schmidt (16 comments.) writes:
October 4th, 2008 at 12:06 am

Its amazing what a grip these little ones can have on us. All at once they can break us and save us at the same time. In the past two weeks I have become immensely grateful for the bond that is between me and my children. I would be lost without it!

Huge hugs to you!

Amber
http://family.kentuckystudio.com

Alison (3xkewl) (98 comments.) writes:
October 4th, 2008 at 10:48 am

Oh wow. Quite a magic moment :)

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