I want to move. (I want alot of things).

Into town, closer to the hospital, closer to the services that we now need for Ivy.

Closer to my mum.

I can’t see how to do it though.

If we move and Ivy has the IVIG then going back to work for a couple of days a week is a possibility for me.

It could be good.

If Ivy can go to pre school with Noah then I could go to work.

It wouldn’t be for any extra income.

It would be for me.

In town we would be close to the Performing Arts School, if Imogen and Madeline got in.

We would have access to after school care, services and people who could support David and I through this business of having a sick child.

But

the market is terrible and our house is nowhere near being able to be sold.

It would need work.

Work that would be easily undone by seven children running around.

I would miss people.

I’ve done this whole moving thing so many times before and I would miss people (Tracey).

If we move we will have to start again.

New schools, new dance teachers, new soccer teams, new neighbourhood.

What about our animals?

I love my house and the view we have, anything we might buy in town would be smaller, much smaller.

We would have to move and rent, something tiny  and unlikely to accept pets.

Clean up the house and make it marketable and then look to buy again after it sold and after I had been working again for six months.

How do we do that?

A mortgage and rent on one income?

Can it be done and if so, would it be worth it?

My head hurts trying to put everything into perspective.