Three day blues…
The sun shone so brightly today.
In the Winter sunshine the voices of the children’s choir lifted into the blue sky.
So blue and clear that I felt I could whisper my thoughts upwards and they would evaporate into organza swirls of white, consumed by the vastness of the day.
I am tired today and I can’t seem to pick myself up off the ground.
Fragile.
Is it possible to have the three day blues, even though there is no baby?
I think something similar happens when I retreat to my own world after the sterility of the hospital. The first few days are busy recreating normality but the third day, I always crash and burn.
Of course, scientifically, biologically, it is a known fact, that ‘fight or flight’ response. That sudden elevation in cortisol and adrenalin that pumps through the body in times of stress.
It helps us to cope.
It helps us to get through the trauma, helps us to stay upright.
If there is that high then, realistically, there must be a low.
Right?
A time when the hormones shift back to normal levels, leaving you flat, almost down.
That’s me.
The girl is not 100% and I am watching her along.
I know the pneumonia can take up to two weeks to resolve and so I keep vigil.
Our day though has been the stuff of dreams.
Relaxed, easy hours together.
The kids playing in the green fields, happy, carefree.
You can’t ask for more than that.
Rest, put your feet up, cuddle your girl, Noah too. Let the big girls bring you cups of tea and snacks. Things will be well.
Oh sweetie.
Dips come and go, as long as you know they are just that, dips.
Chin up?
As you said, the cortisol increases so you can cope with the stress and then you “come down” of that “high”. I am sure that it is normal for you to feel like that and it probably takes until day 3 to get everything back to normal.
I know when my kids were in hospital, each time it took me a couple of days to get back to normal and for a while I felt like I had been through the wringer. Although our hospital visits were nothing like yours. Just to say that I kind of feel what you’re going through.
You really are a poetic writer tiff xxx
feet up, hot chocolate to drink, blocks of chocolate to eat and a good book.
I think I get what you mean.
It must be so exhausting emotionally on this roller coaster you are on.
I know I keep saying it and I hope I don’t sound like a worn out record.
Be kind to yourself.
You need the blue days. They balance out the manic days. Your body recuperates.
I mean if you were feeling fine would you sit? Would you stare out the window? No. So your body and mind have learned to give you the blue days.
Roll with it. Give your spirit time to fight the next battle.
We seem to have the capacity to keep going and going through stressful situations because we just have to but as Kelley says our minds and bodies need time for some R and R after that.
Maybe the down days are the natural way our system deals with this. Feeling down = not feeling like doing much = exactly what we need. Our lifestyles tell us differently - that we should be doing this or that, going here or there. If we listen to our body it is telling us to grab a nap, veg in front of a good dvd and eat chocolate because we deserve it after all we have been through. I think it is telling you to watch 2 DVD’s and have 2 bars of chocolate because you definitely deserve it.
I know this phenomenon well! I hope you and your sweeties recover quickly, Tiff, and that there are no more hospitals in the future for a very long time.
(p.s. Is it possible to have three day blues that last a year-and-a-half? I’m starting to get suspicious around our place… Ah, well — June is a blue month for me anyway. Maybe July will be a great month for the both of us — here’s hoping!)