I wish I could name names sometimes because yesterday I took Ivy and Noah to the dentist.

Not just any dentist but the best dentist in the world.

She was lovely. thorough and has brought us one giant step closer to havivg a type of Ectodermal Dysplasia for Ivy and Imogen.

I’m not really sure what having a ‘type’ will mean, aside from the fact that I have been able to access all kinds of journal publications about Rapp – Hodgkins and have a better understanding of the ED process. I am very thankful that they have a mild case and I am also thankful that their teeth can be looked after by our new paediatric dentist.

The practice also has three dental nurses, all were lovely and they were not phased by twin toddler tornadoes.

At all.

At one stage Noah mosied over to a nurse who was looking at xrays of a jaw. He looked at her and then pulled himself onto her lap.  She hugged him close and then explained the picture that was before them. It was totally sweet and so unlike anything I have experienced in professional rooms before.

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Today I am going to read William’s notes again.

It will be the last time.

I have been trying to access them for over six months.

Am I nervous?

Yes.

I want to take everything in, commit it to my memory for one last time.

I don’t want to forget the little things.

There is already so much of his birth that I can’t remember.

A whole significant portion of his birth that I have lost,

that I can’t piece together, no matter how hard I try.

For whatever reason, my brain cannot process it and so I have to read the notes to help.

I promised the obstetrician this would be the last time.

I am hoping for the sudden onset of a photographic memory…