Reflections.
April 2nd is always going to be a big day. It should be. It’s our son’s birthday.
After alot of worry and tears we settled on a late lunch on the beach. We had a cake and we sang happy birthday to our angel boy.
It was sweet.
He made his presence felt with the very low fly over of the Westpac Helicopter, the very same that was supposed to chopper him out to Westmead on that fateful night. The sound of that helicopter always makes me shudder. ALWAYS. Apparently it’s all a part of this traumatic birth deal.
After lunch we had professional photos taken. A lovely, lovely photographer, Renee Moore, was patient enough to capture the Seven Little Australians. I can’t wait to see them. There were even some with David and I.
Wow! If you ever need a photographer, and you are in the Newcastle area, we can highly recommend her.
The evening sunset was glorious on the beach and the weather was beautiful. We let the kids go in the water for an evening swim and as I watched them together, I couldn’t help but feel melancholy, for the little guy who was missing and alot of love for the earth angels.
They have kept me going, kept me mindful that it’s not just me who is hurting.
They have lost too, a brother, parts of their childhood, parts of the old Mummy.
They keep me grounded. I am thankful for that and for them.
Ivy started the Dapsone today as well and so, I have just one ask for my angel boy tonight and I know it’s his birthday but if he could just grant me this wish…
Please watch over her. Please. And keep her safe.
Happy Birthday, gorgeous boy. I love you.
I’m glad you were able to find some sense of peace today, Tiff. May you be able to find that EVERY day!!
Tiff (hugs) glad you were able to feel William’s presence today - wow on the helicopter.
What a special day you had … celebrating and remembering though maybe not as you ever imagined.
Take care of your heart my dear friend.
Ivy will be in my thoughts and prayers with the Dapsone .You too !
Dearest Tiff, *HUG*. From me. To you. If you need me to send more Tootsie Rolls just let me know. I’d do anything to cheer you up. Well, almost anything. There’s a thing or two I seem to be getting a bit too old for ( I really don’t bend that way anymore) but within reason.
I am glad that you had a relaxing time with your family today…and I can’t wait to see pictures…
Every step, every day is a good step in the grief process…
(((HUGS!!)))
Small steps.
great photos are such an awesome thing! I am so glad that she was able to capture just what your heart held, or at least a snippet of it! This was a beautiful and moving post…
I’m glad you had a good day with your family, I’m looking forward to seeing the pics!
Lots of love always xxx
It sounds like a wonderful day, and I think your kids are very lucky to have someone like you to help them through everything they are having to deal with.
Made me cry.
Sounds like a beautiful, peaceful day. The photos sounds lovely too - can’t wait to see them.
You know what, dude? You rock. Seriously, in a large way. I so admire you.
I can’t even begin to imagine your strength.
sweety that was beautiful….
xxx kim xxx
I’m glad the day worked out in the end. It sounds like it was lovely.
Sending strength and hugs your way.