April 2…

Four candles should burn brightly today in celebration.

The soft glow enveloping your small, pale face and big blue eyes. Filled with wonder and a new understanding. Of birthdays and life and all the important things, like snails and mud and which brand of Peanut Butter you like better and whether Captain Feathersword is funnier than Wags The Dog.

Four candles should be yours today with a wish and a dream attached to every one.

A lime green dinosaur cake with a black smartie eye and spearmint leaf spines. You might have asked me, before the party, if you could have the tail and I would have given you the biggest hug and said, of course, it’s your birthday.

Four candles should be yours today and as you blow them out, in overly dramatic puffs of boyish air, you would feel the love of your big sisters and cousins… and maybe even your little brother and sister too.

You would feel the warmth of their hugs circling you. You would secretly enjoy their attention but you would never show it because big boys who are turning four are tough. They can’t be seen to love too hard.

Except with their Mummy.

Four candles, my son. Where have those years gone?

Four candles, my boy. Has it only been four years?

Submitted as part of Mamablogga’s GWP for April

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Comments

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    Trish (122 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 12:36 am:

    Happy Birthday William …

    I can’t believe it has been 4 years either my friend , teary hugs and lots of love on this bittersweet day.

    talk to you soon …

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    Marylin (49 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 2:19 am:

    Happy Birthday little man, I only wish you could be celebrating it the way you described it Tiff. Lots of love xx

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    Sadie (48 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 3:56 am:

    Happy Birthday.

    *hugs* To you, Tiff.

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    lceel (61 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 3:58 am:

    Happy Birthday, William. *HUG*, Tiff.

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    Childlife (62 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 5:22 am:

    Oh, Tiff… praying really hard and sending you lots of hugs to day… and crying with you.

    Happy birthday William… I miss you too, though I never met you. And oh, you are exceptional! You’ve touched so many lives with your brief burst of starlight here… I know your mum is so proud of you. You should be proud of her too — she’s such a good mum. One day you’ll remember for yourself, Sweetie.

    Birthday Kisses, darling boy! xx

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    Xbox4NappyRash (47 comments.) (subscribed) said April 2, 2008, 5:51 am:

    You have all my respect, and then some.
    Take care.

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    Guera (54 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 6:05 am:

    Beautifully written, Tiff. Thinking of you today. ((Hugs))

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    Dayna (3 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 6:23 am:

    Tiff. 4 years… it’s amazing how it can feel like four days ago - and four lifetimes ago - all at the same time.

    I am thinking of you and wishing you peace, and comfort. I’m not sure that it ever gets easier - maybe more tolerable overtime? I’m not sure. I do know I am wishing for you, and thinking of you, of the rest of the family - and I will offer up a prayer for sweet baby William, gone too soon, and never to be forgotten.

    Dayna

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    Summer (31 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 6:34 am:

    Stay strong sweetie.

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    Leigh (18 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 7:04 am:

    Happy Birthday special little man.

    That was so beautiful Tiff. Sending lots of thoughts and hugs for you all today.

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    Bettina (68 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 9:29 am:

    Happy Birthday William!

    Hugs to you mama…………..

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    frogpondsrock (99 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 11:01 am:

    Flowers and hearts for you Tiff..

    Happy birthday William..

    Kim xxx

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    Jayne (73 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 12:26 pm:

    Happy Birthday William.
    (((hugs))) Tiff

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    Happy Birthday William!

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    Veronica (154 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 2:29 pm:

    Happy 4th Birthday William!

    The time passes much too fast. (((hugs)))

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    Kelley (52 comments.) said April 2, 2008, 9:00 pm:

    Happy Birthday beautiful boy.

    And loving hugs for Mummy.

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    Happy Birthday Son.

    I miss you.

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    I hope you continue to find much comfort, today especially.

    Thank you for participating.

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    Mama Zen (2 comments.) said April 3, 2008, 10:02 am:

    Heartbreakingly beautiful.

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    Michelle (The Beartwinsmom) (1 comments.) (subscribed) said April 3, 2008, 12:19 pm:

    (((((Tiff)))))

    Your writing is so vivid- I could picture everything, including your heartbreak.

    Praying for you and your family. I know how you felt when you heard that heliocopter.

    With much love from across the world,
    Michelle aka The Beartwinsmom

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    Thank you for sharing such a loving tribute with all of us.

    Hugs to you today.

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    Mr Lady (38 comments.) said April 3, 2008, 2:56 pm:

    Dude, I don’t know what to say. I can’t be witty here. I’m hugging you. Also, sobbing. And for the record, he prefers Captain Feathersword. He’s a discriminating man of taste, and all discriminating men of taste prefer Captain Feathersword. FACT.

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    warillever (1 comments.) said April 5, 2008, 5:43 am:

    A beautiful tribute to the life that could have been.

    Happy William’s birthday to you, Mom.

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    jen (12 comments.) said April 5, 2008, 11:02 am:

    I’m a couple of days late here, but a belated happy birthday to William. What a sad day for you.

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    Happy birthday to a beautiful boy, much loved and much missed.

    Until you all meet int the stillness of forever,

    Much love to you and your family.

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