He…

He stirs inside her, in slow turns and knots. His time is coming. It’s almost Easter.

She wills him to be here, wants to meet him, wonders what he will look like and pushes away her doubts.

This is right.

This is meant to be, this little boy amongst the girls.

Her dreams have become nightmares, fitful and sharp, slicing through her confidence and she knows in her heart of hearts that something is very wrong.

He moves again, pressing, urgent, yet sluggish all the same. She counts his movements and he makes the grade…just, so she tells herself not to worry. He is alright; the room left is sparse and he is just getting ready to enter this world.

She lets herself focus once more on her little guy and whether he will look just like the others with those huge blue eyes.

He will bide his time and bring with him chaos and confusion and a new love, so deep, that will cause her, his mother, to hope, when all hope is lost.

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Posted on March 19th, 2008 by Tiff
Filed under: Loss of a baby, Love, hurting

10 Responses to “He…”

Leigh (20 comments.), on March 19th, 2008 at 9:36 pm Said:

:*( ..Hugs for you Tiff.
Veronica (293 comments.), on March 19th, 2008 at 10:07 pm Said:

So beautiful.
Betsy (88 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 12:48 am Said:

Words don’t come, instead my tears flow.
lceel (157 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 2:07 am Said:

(*HUG*)
Marylin (155 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 2:45 am Said:

I just don’t know what to say. Beautiful words from a beautful woman. All my love xx
Tracey (109 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 7:53 am Said:

Tears before breakfast. Your blog should come with a warning some days!

Hang in there. Love you.
childlife (157 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 3:29 pm Said:

I love you, Tiff. Let yourself love him with your whole heart and grieve without apology. It is because of your capacity to love him so deeply that he was gifted to you. And, I know, I know, I know how desperately this hurts. Both of you are beautiful… and I think he has infused you with strength to fight for Immy. So he’s still very much a living, breathing part of your family in the strength that you hold in your heart today. Much love and many prayers to you, my dear, dear friend in this season of sorrow. Mine comes swiftly as well.
childlife (157 comments.), on March 20th, 2008 at 3:59 pm Said:

Tiff - I just had a serious sleep-deprived brain-freeze in which I scrambled Immy and Ivy’s names… both in the comment in this post… and unfortunately over at Immy’s blog as well… I’m sooooo sorry *sigh* And then I panicked like a loony bird trying to fix things at Immy’s and didn’t get back over here quick enough to edit my comment. I meant well… no more sleep-deprived blogging for me…
river, on March 20th, 2008 at 4:35 pm Said:

William will always be with you..
Trish (181 comments.), on March 24th, 2008 at 9:43 pm Said:

{{hugs}} was thinking of you over Easter.