Ok. I’m gonna come clean.
She’s sick again.
Am I ashamed that I can’t keep my girl well? YES!
Do I hate having to call the paed on his week of parental leave? Yes, yes, ok yes.
Am I shattered every time she cries that sad, help me cry? Yes, oh Lord Yes.
I don’t know what to do for her anymore. What’s more is I don’t think anybody else does either.
Posted on December 10th, 2007 by Tiff
Filed under: Daily life
Please please don’t feel ashamed. It is so obvious from this blog that you are a caring mother doing everything in your power for Ivy. You can do no more. Be proud of yourself for that instead.
My last child, now 17, had so many niggly little illnesses that when he was young I felt that it was my fault. I was not looking after him properly, I was not taking care that things were hygienic enough …. I was at the doctor’s all the time with ear infections, rashes, thrush and a runny nose that lasted 3 years to one degree or other. He was not sitting, crawling, talking, walking…. as early as my first two kids.
I got the feeling from the docs that they thought I was a neurotic mum. He was almost 4 when he was finally diagnosed with a disability which had caused all of his problems.
I had wasted all that time blaming myself for not being good enough as a mother.